every time i get on here write up an update, i seem to be at a loss for words... i really dont know what to say, except everything is going fine, my life although not where id want it, is intact and livable. I have a wonderful girlfriend with me, and no, i dont get tired of saying that.

I wonder sometimes where my spirit has gone, why everytime i get up a pen to try to write im at as much a loss for words as i am writing a journal. Everytime i say i have ideas in my head nothing ever comes out of it. If even half of my thoughts were written down thered be at least one new deviation every couple of days, or every day even. I dont know, it seems my grasp over the written half of my creative side has been slipping as I grasp deeper and tighter on the musical. In music im inspired almost constantly, while in writing i can barely make a word. It seems i hit a crossroads at one point in this past year, and all i can hope for is that despite my choice, the roads will merge in the long run.